Hey guys! Long time no talk!? Read? Type?...
ANYWAYS I've been distant... And I don't mean out of town having the time of my life either. 2018 was a tough year for me... And, it's not because I have some tragic story to share or suffered some sort of health problem or hardship. A few things happened this year, one in particular, that aided in pushing me into my slump.
My grandmother passed away suddenly... She lived a good long life and she went peacefully but that day affected my whole family for a long time and it was the hardest thing I have had to go through in a very long time.
Aside from that a lot of amazing things happened this year! We settled into our new place, I got a new job, new friends, we got a puppy and a new baby nephew, I bought my first new-ish car, we got married AND we ended the year with a pretty great photography season and my (now Husband) got a new job as well! All of these things made our life better and more exciting in so many different and awesome ways!!! But along with all that good came a lot of stress and changes and overwhelming feelings. I was very depressed...
For some reason, and I wouldn't be able to put my finger on why I started out my year completely and utterly exhausted. I felt so uninspired in every way. I hate to admit it, but I actually dreaded the thought of taking pictures... Of anything at all... The very thought of putting myself out there and committing to deadlines and even having to talk to people in general or even opening Photoshop on my computer just made me feel weighed down and that really affected my art. And then on top of that, I had fallen into depression and was fighting to just get out of bed sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I still love photography and I am still very passionate about it! I just needed a break. So, I took a few months to focus on the other things in my life. I felt like working full time and doing photography had caused me to put a lot of other things on the back burner.
There were plenty of things to keep me busy, trust me! After a time I felt like I could breathe a little easier, and once the wedding was over I was ready to get back at it! I hadn't done anything creative at all in such a long time and was surprised at how easy it was to fall in love with photography all over again! It was October, the perfect time to be creative and my best friend and favorite model Alexis Gibson, asked me to go out in the beautiful fall weather to take some pictures with her. It was so refreshing to do something creative again and it sparked a new passion in me that hadn't been there for a long time!
I'm so thankful for the support system I have in my life. My family, my friends and fellow creatives all played a big part in my recovery this year. I. Am. So. Excited! To see what 2019 has in store for me and I want to show you all, every step of the way! This is where I am going to share my stories and creative endeavors with you! Keep your eyes open because there will be a lot to see. I'm going to show you my creative world through my camera lens now so scroll on!